As Christmas was approaching, I was sometimes struggling to feel His presence. The days were moving too quickly, and as I prepared for Christmas Day, I tried to remind myself – the reason for the season.
I have to admit, I get caught up in the lights, trees and decorations. I thoroughly enjoy the build up of the season, the decorating, the potlucks, the parties, and then it was here, the days to celebrate the birth of our saviour.
I think back to a praise team practice a little over a month ago. I was a fill-in for the other praise team, and we were short a few bodies. It was just me and the guys! Panic started to set in as I realized I didn’t have the safety of my other dudettes. I had to actually sing, I couldn’t hide behind the voices of the other ladies. For some reason I heard a voice inside my head, “sing like no one is listening!” So I did!
Someone walked to the doorway of the sanctuary as we played, placed both hands on the door jams and listened. I could feel the smile across His face as He beamed with pride. I looked to the door, I saw no one. Do you know how large a span the door jams are? Yeah!
We continued our practice, and again, I could feel the presence and the pride of a loved one looking in on His kids as they worshiped. I looked to the doorway, I did not see anyone, but I felt someone, someone proud of us, the way a parent looks to their child and sees greatness in all they do! I could feel Him saying He was so proud of us!
During that practice, I continued to feel Him in the doorway, like a lover or a parent. When He walks in the room and looks at you, you feel Him, and you feel His love. I cannot wait until I feel our Father’s presence watching over again. It was such a sense of peace, love, acceptance and greatness all at once!